A shocking revelation turned my queries into definite
answers. God answered them for me.
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However, there is this part of me that should be
chiseled. Unknown to me, I have this
egocentric me, selfish me, fame-hungry me. I didn’t know I have these, until God allowed
me to experience failures and disappointments that were supposed to teach me
things that I shouldn’t have taken for granted.
Deliberately, I’ve changed.
People say that the real you will only be seen as you
experience a crisis in your life; something tragic, mind-blowing, and totally
upsetting. That holds true to me. In the midst of my joy, I clearly see God as
a generous, loving Father. But it just
changed. Doubt engulfed me when I
learned about my failed test. Pain
consumed my heart. Shame took away my
joy. I doubted Him for not granting my
desire. I asked, “Why not? When?” I was
smashed into pieces and accused him of hurting me. My pride took my joy for that shame slowly
creeping into my being. I didn’t trust
him; I turned into questioning him instead even if I know I didn’t have the
least right to do it.